Today I lived.

living is a fluid concept. "living life" is usually thought of in the carpe diem sense. nope.

living doesn't just mean feeling good--being spontaneous and feeling alive.
to feel alive you must also feel sadness. don't suppress what you feel. including anger. anger is an important part of living. food for thought.

back to today. i felt alone today. i realized then, i was incredibly selfish. "me" and "i": all over my journal with little talk of others. or condescending talk of others.

i decided to do service today. now i'm a pen pal to an elementary school kid.
i hope to hear from the other service institutions so i can get out from my horrible selfish shell.

feeling yourself. getting outside yourself. that's when you really find yourself. that's what it means to live.